Shelly:

Wow hon, I'm sorry.

One can be OSDD (other specified dissociative disorder), I'm riding the fence on the 2, but it doesn't really matter....I'm a multiple. We have some amnesia and denial still among a few others.

The best that I can do is just describe my experiences.

Let's say I was born abused up till I graduated which caused the poly-fragmentation. Everything is a dissociative trigger to us- sight, sound, memories, emotions, thoughts, people, places, and things,...

We did private research and investigations in neuro-biology and psychoanalysis in the last year, and absorbed experiences by others affected till we were able to piece the puzzle together. It took lots of work.

It took systematic self-exploration and discovery (scientific method: ask and answer). Since we have fragmented memories and thinking, we kept a few notebooks of our findings. Actually, I did most of the research and the others helped.

The "I" started consciencely paying attention to our thoughts, and noticed that the thinking head voices were actually all different. We also begun to notice that each particular voice had its own likes and dislikes, age, self image, ideas, gestures, body movements, gender,...
From there, we were able to build a profile on each of the fragments as they became more clear. This is still an ongoing process of self-discovery.

We knew about "co-conscience", but it took months of experimenting to realize exactly how it works for us versus the scientific description in black/white print.

We, at least I, is proud of the analysis of ourselves. Some of us hate it because it means never going back to the way it was. We are now switching hard and it's very noticeable because we can now recognize it for what it is.

To us, this isn't self-diagnosing, it's more system self-discovery of what we know to be true since forever. We just have the tools to be able to do so, that's all.

I hope this helps some!

I'm going to post this in that thread also.