I think to an extent its normal to think about therapy a lot. In your case where your therapist has hurt you so much its very understandable that you would be thinking of it so much. You think of how it has hurt you and you are probably wondering what she might take away next. I think it takes a lot of strength to stay with her and try to work on things. I also think it shows a great deal of strength to see another T to try and deal with this. My hope for you is that you can move on and heal from this. Take as much time as you need to grieve. I have been following your threads for a long time and I am really pulling for you and I want to see you happy and healed and not hurting. You have so much strength that is really inspiring. Big hugs to you!