i always used to bottle it up and now its both positive and negative for me to let and allow myself to cry. its hard. its painful. and i dont feel much relief after crying. even though i know its good and better than keeping it inside. i have just cried in fact.

im scared for today, i have T at noon but also will be home alone the whole afternoon and im very scared by it. im scared to be alone and having nobody to contain my feelings. when im alone it feels like im going crazy...

any suggestion on what to do when you're alone at home with nothing to do? i almost feel panic about it.