Hi all, I am so happy to say that I had 2 job offers out of the 2 interviews. I decided to accept one of them, and already start Saturday.
I am really excited and also nervous. It is in a different environment- prior i was office manager for my dad (as well as a whole host of things...) and now, i am going to be a bookkeeper in a Accounting firm! The owner/partner said he has good feelings about me, and feels excited for me to join their team.
This has given me a sense of pride and hope that honestly I haven't had in a long time! or maybe ever!
I can feel my life changing for the better. I am working on my Anxiety. I am dealing however with a lot of stress during this transition....
After the 'high' of the job acceptance, even talking/including my parents, having their support, i still have to work p/t for my dad. Things are REALLY bad for his business right now, i have a lot of worry and guilt. I am trying to deal w/ that.
I have an exam tomorrow, Dr appt today, new job this weekend, ahhh so much going on and im just trying to grab life by the horns.
I did have a big setback last night and also about 1.5 weeks ago (rage attack/ anxiety) but at least my BF and i identified it (even if it was after the fact .... ) as my anxiety. I realize, i have a lot of anxiety and worry to deal with. That , right now, is my focus.

I wont let it stop me- i am going to face my fears, one at a time.