Thank you SO much Littleowl for your suggestions. i have completely forgotten about tv. it was one of my favorite hobbies, watching tv series, and now with depression i dont find it as enjoyable as before so i have stopped watching them, but it would still be better than walking back and forth in my room going crazy or laying down in bed desperate because alone. i have tried walking but it was agony for me, but with the right weather it could be nice again maybe. thank you so much for your practical suggestions!

the appointment went well. he explained to me why im reacting like this (i need to grow up - said in a gentle tone) and tried to suggest some distractions too. it was not a disappointment like i feared it would be. i could feel he cares and that was already a lot for me. next appt in 2 weeks and im happy about it.