There's a lot that has happened between the last time you had ECT and now. If you weren't in the middle of grieving and making huge adjustments in your life this depression might never have happened and you would have never even known it could happen.

Trust your mom to help you. She seems to have a good understanding of everything and you need someone to help you. You can't force yourself to do everything all by yourself. It's too big of a burden.

I'm glad you made the appointment. It's ok if you talk to them and decide to do it now or decide to wait a little bit. You can ask if Emsam is a possibility to start after the treatments; I know my psychiatrist just put someone on it that way.

I'm glad you are getting the help you need. I know it's hard.