I think sometimes other people and especially parents want to fix things so their friends and children don't hurt anymore. They honestly think that if only you accept their way of religion you will be fixed and not hurt anymore. They don't want to accept that MI is real because then they can't fix it. Its not about you, its about their own anxiety over the situation. They are axious and they want you not to hurt, to them this will solve both problems. They aren't trying to hurt you.
My mum used to think if I just went back to church everything would get better. But fortunately our church is progressive and they have adult classes that discuss such problems as MI and my mum was able to find peace and recognize that no amount of religion was going to fix the MI. She came to accept that I needed medication and that if I wanted a relationship with God it had to be in a way that makes sense to me. And I had to come to an understanding that her religion was part of who she was. We have a good relationship now but it was rocky for a long time. May your relationship with your mom grow too.
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…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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