I just had my very first nasty roadburn. I took it like a champ, but it feels like someone stabbed me in the stomach I have a lot of internal bleeding in one area, but it seems contained. My parents are taking me to urgent care later, even though I'm all bruised up. I'm crying a lot, because it put to note how defeated I feel.

It's not me getting hurt that bothers me at all or just learning how to do it right bothers me.

I got all the pain I feel right now of everything bothering me hitting me all at once. I feel like a ****ing loser for crying at the same time I know I'm not crying because of this pain. I walked home and I'm still ok. I didn't cared I ****ed up my phone that I paid a lot for or my favorite jacket. I don't care about those things. Yeah it frustrates me but doesn't hit my pride. No one said anything to me for falling I was a lone. I just had a realization how I feel so much isolated from everyone else that they only just care for themselves and when I'm really hurt they seem more indifferent than ever.

It ****s me up that how I feel this.