I take physical pain much easier than emotional pain. It just festers because I lack the resources needed. I can't afford it yet. I will be living my whole life still fighting my head and knowing it will be never be easy for every new interaction.

That how helpless I am to that but the pain I got getting hit and even if it's life threatening or excruciating like had been before for when I stopped breathing got a catheter got sick from encephalitis and many different diseases and being punched a lot and kicked the pain never hurts for me.