I tend to have the opposite problem of not knowing what to talk about and clamming up. We've talked about it though and she's patient, but I always feel bad like I'm making her job difficult, but my mind really just goes blank and I don't know what to say unless she asks me a direct question. So goes the journey...

Hi Rainbow, does this relate to your post last week? I didn't reply to your post last week but part of it really chimed with me as I had just realised that sometimes when I talk to my T I talk in a way to her that is quite cut off from her (because I'm afraid of judgement). This means that she can't soothe me or help me with her responses as I'm not totally present with her. Is this what your T is talking about? Is she trying to encourage you to be more present with her so she can support you?

I write long letters to my T about my daily life.

It's just that I never really had someone who seemed interested, who seems to care.

If I ramble in session, she cuts me off. And she took pains to say that we only talked about one thing but it was "enough". But I never feel I've enough time to talk about all the things I want to process which occur in my daily life.

For now, she still allows me to write my insanely long letters.