I need to sleep. Tomorrow is a big day. But as usual I can't fall asleep. I've taken PRN klonopin and just took 5 mg of PRN hydroxyzine (which I have to bite to get that dose and it is nasty tasting but it's too tiny to cut and if I took 10 mg they'd not be able to get information out of me at admission).

I keep thinking that this is my last night to sleep in darkness, with my warm flannel sheets and blankets (my hospital is an iceberg and I have layers of clothes packed and probably should add a shirt to sleep in under the fleece one in case) and no kitties and ugh.

I've never been so glad to go to the hospital before. But I need to seep. Guess it's time to try to read again. something has to work. Maybe warm milk. Every so often that helps and I am cold b/c I got out of bed, which is unfortunately where the milk is.

I hate anxiety.