I'm so, so sorry you're experiencing this amount of paranoia. I get it to from time to time. Maybe not as severe but I get it. It's difficult I hate it. All I've known how to conquer it is using dbt distress tolerance skills. Pretend I'm in the hospital. Take a zyprexa, have chamomile tea, use my essential oils and talk to ppl that really know me and are compassionate and can help me through the difficult time. You know how to reach me. I'm here for you sister. Anytime ok. All my love.