Thanks. I gave in and decided to look weird and added a band-aid to yet another picked at cuticle (I'm up to needing 3 and really 4) so hopefully I'll quit picking at that and that may help me sleep too. 3-4 AM is pretty normal for me so with the anxiety it is just hard to have a good night. I really hope the nurses don't make me remove my bandaids because I have these fancy ones that stick for about 7 days and since they are just preventing me from picking I really need them to last. Otherwise I pick the bandaid off and go through tons of them and still pull the skin off the cuticles. I'm trying to figure out how to justify bringing my own bandaids but somehow I have a feeling that wouldn't be allowed for some reason. Like it strange and I'm pushing it anyway. I know I'm allowed things if visitors bring them and I don't have visitors so I'm bringing them myself---herbal tea bags b/c the hospital tea is icky and prunes and dried apricots for obvious reasons. Another reason I really want a private room. But even a room on the curtain side is something. For whatever reason the by the door beds don't have a curtain and so they get no privacy and all the light at night. I have done that once and it was hard and they weren't taking away my sedative. If that happens I'll be asking for a curtain side bed when someone leaves.

I'm feeling sleepy again but not quite enough to turn the light out. Maybe if I read a bit. I keep hoping I'll just drift off.