Ok so here it goes.
I have been in group therapy for almost a year now. But I still feel dismissed sometimes and like noone gets me and I can't get to the point like this. I need help, but I feel like people don't really care and my T has formed some picture of me which doesn't really fit my personality. And I am afraid of speaking up about it, because that would be seen as denial and push me deeper into the corner.
I have tried to switch from the group to individual therapy. The T was a nice woman, but she seemed discouraging to me and somehow it didn't fit.
There's topics I feel like I can't talk about in the group because I tried once and got terribly understood, felt judged by my T and went home feeling horrible. I am still thinking about this constantly and don't know how to solve this. It was about a friendship which I have been very frustrated with for quite some time. But my T didn't even ask me why, how it made me feel and what were the reasons and so on. I guess he thinks I can't judge what a good friendship looks like and that I am too clingy. - Whatever it was, my true problem remained untouched. He was very dismissive and didn't give me any credit and I just got desperate and cried and felt SO ashamed in front of the group. I feel so horribly misunderstood and I am pretty angry about it. For him, I am just the average crazyperson.
This is too difficult.
Any suggestions please?