I actually don't drink very often, maybe twice a month. And then it's not usually a lot. I just know right now drinking of any sort would be detrimental because it would lower my impulse control, so I'm going to avoid it.

I agree with the cognitive functioning piece. I'm definitely not as creative as I used to be, nor can I concentrate as well on things. It's just that medication doesn't seem to help. I just...I know it will work. I don't know if emsam will. And what if I waste a month trying emsam to find out it doesn't do anything? I'm not safe right now. I really should be inpatient but I'm trying not to cause my son any more psychological damage.

I don't know. I'm talking to my therapist today. Maybe I'll try to see the pnurse too.