Hi Inky,

I have been reading your posts, not always responding, but difinitely been reading.

When I read this, I seemed to relate at least a little, & thought this may shed some light on your feelings. I know when I am mad at the situation I am in, I get very angry. Thus giving everyone & everything around me an attitude. Afterall, I'm mad & need to let some of it out, or I will explode. I find myself doing things I would never do, also being a very quite, sweet person. The "wild animal" that is fighting back comes out. This even included fignting with the law enforcememt or anyone else that is close, especially if I am confronted by them for even a small thing.

I found that once I got used to my life style, I settled back into being more myself, but once I had a taste of being a little wild, it seems to never all go away.

Don't know if this gives any information that may help you understand what may be going on, but thought I would try.
Debbie