Thank you Pickle.

See the problem is I believe from the bottom of my heart that they do not care. It feels that way. And even if they did sorta care there is no one that I can talk to. They would not understand... No one I know is going through anything like this. Years ago it was known that I had "problems" because, well I was in a hospital.... and later it was thrown in my face. I can't deal with closed minded people. There is a stigma that goes along with mental illness and I don't want to deal with the sad looks again. And people scared to talk to me because they are afraid that i'll crack... :: I'm always so negative.