Dear T

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. I'm not feeling that comfortable with you. Ever since you told me that news. I don't want to see you. Which is a bit weird because I'm a bit angry/disappointed with you because you're going on leave in two months and I'll get a new T, which I HATE. What the point in keeping to see you. You're going to leave me in two months. I still need you as my T. Because of you leaving... I don't know. I just don't feel like seeing you. Like I want to leave you before you'll be leaving me. And I don't think I can deal with seeing you get bigger. Last session I couldn't look at you. I hate you for leaving me in the middle of my treatment.

I just hate T's! I really fon't know if therapy is good or bad for you. It should be good for you, help you. But most of my therapy has made me even worse. And now this with you...

I just want to disappear.