Hugs StillStrong. I know what you are going through with custody and visitation issues. Maybe you are still in that breaking out with your ex period and haven't separated yourself from what he is and is not doing. You cannot control what he does. Love and cherish the time you spend with your children. Mine have watched their father for nearly two years now continually brush aside and not visit them on most of his specified days. They get over it, really. They are happy adjusted children who realize their father may not live up on his end but also that their mother (me) works very hard to care for them. Try not to worry so much what the ex is and is not doing and focus on yourself and your children.