I think you should have a choice as to if and when to open the doors, and it would be good if you came to an agreement with your T about that. An agreement to go at your pace. But as Stefano says, you will probably have to face it at some point. Can your T explain to you why he's pushing you? Maybe it will make sense. I like your analogy of you pushing the door shut and him trying to shove it open. Did you say that to him? Maybe he doesn't realise how hard you feel he is pushing you.

Your T is frustrated with you hurting yourself - what do you mean by this? Mentally or physically beating yourself up about what happened? Is it that he can see you hurting yourself about what happened and he is frustrated because he cares about you, and doesn't think you should be hurting yourself?

Debbie