I came through the day ok but I can't stop crying. I couldn't say more than three words in the car to my coworker. It must have been an extremely awkward car trip for him. He obviously cares about me. He kept trying to start a conversation about work or about some of the things we used to talk about. I couldn't manage more than an short answer. When we got back to the shop he said something about how he's been so tired after work he just goes home and crashes. He used to come to my house occasionally but he stopped coming so I think this was his way of telling me why. Except that not an hour later I found out that after work tonight he met up with another coworker. She invited me to join them. What the F. I wanted to say I couldn't join them because he is too tired after work to be going out. I didn't snap at her because she's one of my friends there who I've still be able to talk to when we are alone.

I'm hurt and this is all the plot of a Judy Blume novel. I can not believe that at my age I'm creating junior high school drama. My brain is just taking me down.

In good news I think I solved the newest problem with my insurance. It will take 7 to 10 days to make sure it is resolved then I can start looking for a doctor again. The last time the 7-10 day problem they resolved much more quickly so I'll check with them at the beginning of next week. Of course that last problem was the snafu that led to the current one.