Well at least you're in a place where you can be monitored while they do these aggressive cuts. And maybe what you need right now is to sleep for awhile, maybe sleep through the withdrawal. I don't know what your unit is like. The one I usually go to is liberal about sleeping; you're not required to attend groups and you can sleep all day if you want. Of course it's marked in your chart and it will be harder to get discharged that way. But the one unit I was on years ago required group attendance. I would sleep all day and eventually get put on "lockout protocol" wherein my room would be locked and I would only be allowed in to use the bathroom and at night. It got so bad that the last time I was there they took one look at my name and put me on lockout immediately! I showed them though, I just slept on the couch in the back room instead lol...

I'm so glad you're actually there though. I'm happy to hear from you. I will miss you very much around here.