I think what I fear most is abuse and control. Seems the men in my past "all start out" oo so very nice. And bang, they either try to control me or hit me or verbally demean me. I guess you could say, I have been "loved" way too much...

I did not date after the separation/divorce because I was focused on raising my son and I did not want my son seeing me with different men. Guess I wanted to set an example. Which is a hoot because it seems my son has the same values towards women as his father. shrugs shoulders

But then, maybe that all was just an excuse. Because in reality, I am afraid of men. I am only afraid of men when in a romantic relationship. I am not afraid of men when they are friends. In fact, some of my close friends are men. When a guy wants to get close, I panic.