You are not useless! You are loved...by your family and by us! I understand how difficult it is. Sometimes I stay on the computer just reading the same sentence over and over and over again. I get so lost in time and feel like I am worthess. It's not true. It is your brain poisoning your beauty. You CAN do it. If you can't do it right now, that is OK, but right now is just one of many moments in your life. My therapist always tells me to do one thing at a time and that sometimes getting off of the couch is an ackomplishment.