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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
They would be, cash. I lost my father at ten and my husband this year. Both things devastated me. Your kids would not get over it, trust me. I didn't "get over" my father dying for ten years. Just repressed the thoughts. I don't know if I'll ever be "over" my husband's death. It kills me inside knowing that it could have been prevented. For all your husband's faults, it seems like he does love you. He would never forgive himself if you died at your own hand. I'm having trouble forgiving myself for my husband's death and he didn't even do it on purpose. I just so wish he could have felt like he could talk to me and not turned to drugs. Your husband would forever be left wondering what he could have done differently.
Please believe me. Depression tells us lies and says no one would care or they would be better off. But they won't be.
Hugs. I hope we both start feeling better soon.
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It's hard to imagine this is true...but I know it is. I am just sick of feeling this way and keep justifying that my family would be better off without me. My t does a good job of giving me the right perspective though. And, it's so nice to have her in my life. She doesn't judge and she has no expectations of me (other than I don't hurt myself).
You know there is nothing you could have done differently for your husband and he would hate to see you struggle with this. It is so tragic what happened to him and you can't put that blame on youself.
I look up to you so much because there is no way I could walk through this life without my husband. You are amazing! And don't forget that! I hope both of us are feeling better soon as well. Sometimes life sucks!