((((Inky))))
You are a sweet person who has a lot going on in life right now. It is no wonder that you feel mixed up. Stress can make us feel strange ways...angry..scared... I am normally a very non violent and non confrontational person. Stress makes me feel as though I want to drive my car through a building.
I guess I really don't have any advice. I just wanted to let you know that I read your post.

Take care of yourself hun,
Jessica