I didn't really mean to use the word behaving but that's another sensitive spot and I tend to use it when aggravated about a part of a stay. I once was here and was due to go home in a couple days when I wrote down that I was planning to kill myself and gave it to the nurse. She put me on line of sight supervision and when I asked how long she told me until I could "behave". Which became my ironic word for all that is wrong in psychiatry. She was one of my favorite nurses until then; I think that evil nurse from above told her that I was doing it for attention but whatever the reason it was an unfortunate word choice. You're right and they all know that I'm likely to be a little "different" in the next few days. So I'll get more "enjoyable". I've been in here pacing and pacing and it's a small space which tends to get some attention. I've also been begging for things to do with akathesia/mania and so agitated. Thus far the agitation hasn't been bad this time. I'm just kind of bored. And a movie called Happy made me cry. And now it is weekend, the most boring thing of all (although I'm continuing to have med changes so we'll see how boring it stays).