Better end with a dose of reality regarding the above. An old friend (who I never really knew that well) has suggested we meet up and, because she is attractive and I'm pretty lonely, I've allowed myself to get too caught up in the idea as I've nothing else positive to think about outside of the usual. Reality is she is back in the country and just being polite - purely as a friend. I know this because if it was anything else then it would have happened years ago. It's about time I grew up and accepted my place in life. Thursday will remind me if it even happens.

I'll end with a dose of realism.