I have now alienated a nurse.......oops. Last night I was upset about the Seroquel thing and complained a good bit. That was supposed to be resolved today. The dr. was putting back on a little bit more of it for tonight and I started Clozaril. But when meds came the order said my seroquel was for tomorrow. I think I snapped at her. As well as whined. But really, it shouldn't be so hard.......turns out this was a pharmacy error and taken care of quickly. But the nurse is now not so much my friend. But honestly? She knows why I am here. Everyone knows why I am here and that I am going to be experiencing some behaviors. I was reassured of this in group today. Lots of crabby thoughts too but those don't hurt anyone as long as I can keep my mouth shut. (other patients; I am not worried about the staff so much.)

Otherwise clozaril is giving me some blurry vision but definitely didn't make me sleepy. Tomorrow I go to 50 but I think I saw on the computer screen that it is 25 twice a day. I've still managed to be somewhat agitated tonight with it.