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Old Feb 05, 2016, 10:34 PM
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Originally Posted by Loco4 View Post
Hi All,

I'm in the midst of some love/hate transference. I absolutely love my therapist! I just want to run away and live happily ever after with her. Obviously this is pure fantasy.

Lately though I'm been questioning whether she genuinely cares. We discussed it and she assures me she has no negative feelings towards me. She says she wouldn't do this kind of deep work if she didn't feel like our connection was strong enough.

Sometimes I feel like she doesn't really know me. I've brought material to sessions before and it's kind of been brushed over.

How in depth do you talk about your life with your t? How much do they know about you? How interested are they in your history and what's going on in your life?



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My therapist knows everything, every single gorey detail of my past. We talk about transference a lot. In therapy I am completely numb, its automatic and I have no control over it but at night I find myself thinking of him to make me feel safe and though its not my intent, that 'day dream' or fantasy world I make up in my head turns sexual. I feel quite guilty about it and then feel the need to 'punish' over it but he says its normal given my past. I dont know.
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Thanks for this!
Loco4