lately my mind is in constant agony psychologically
it's a kind of feeling like mental pain, making me not know what to do with myself, violent thoughts and urges to hurt, wanting to cry but cant really cry and wanting to bang my head somewhere.
i m getting close to psychosis with voices and stuff

i realise during such period, sleeping is not very deep
there would be times in the middle of my sleep, i get woken up by the mental turmoil and became semi-conscious. i want to cry and bang my head, lasting for a while before drifting off to sleep again
people around me want me hospitalised for my uncontrolled behaviour n self-harm

sorry i cant explain it well because i have no idea how to describe the feeling
do any of you experience simliar situation? how does it feel for you?