I can tell you've put a lot of thought into this and I hope it turns out well. Im very impressed with your not being defensive about this topic. I was a little concerned my post would come across as no one should ever come out and be proud of their sexuality. Thats not what I believe at all.

Also when you said the part about anxiety and this not being butterflies, I can totally relate to that. There is nothing more infuriating than dealing with extreme anxiety and someone dismissing it as oh, I get a little nervous when I have to give a speech in front of people.

Not knowing you or your family, from what you posted I would think they would all be very supportive. Hopefully coming out and being openly authentic to who you are will give you more confidence and you wont have to have that towering anxiety about hiding. That does make sense to me. I'll be rooting for you.