Thanks so much for all the replies.
On one level, I feel like the blank slate approach frees me to focus on myself. It is also less triggering in a sense, as I often react very strongly (on the inside) to certain nonverbal signals. Since many of those are absent, I am feeling calmer and safer.
However, I also feel a bit distrustful, because the lack of emotional reaction is unnerving. This is not how normal individuals interact with each other....
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Originally Posted by CantExplain
I experienced the blank slate as Madame T withholding her feelings from me. I reacted by trying to see around the slate (to deduce as much as I could from the little I was shown)
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I would say this is exactly how I feel. I haven't tried to provoke him (yet), but I have stated very directly that I wish I knew what he was feeling. He shows me next to nothing of what's going on in his mind. What he does show, I suspect to be carefully thought about and controlled, and I am suspicious that it does not actually represent his thought processes.