The question of whether or not I have faked the entire thing keeps creeping around the corner in my head and I can’t seem to stop it. Maybe I HAVE just faked everything and my meds are making me like this. It’s possible. Isn’t it. I mean couldn’t it be? I just can’t seem to get the thought from my head. I could have just made it all up. But the meds were awfully expensive for me to have gone to all that trouble wouldn’t you think? I just can’t quite get it straight except I think it’s possible. I don’t know I don’t think I’m making any sense when I say it here, but It makes sense to me when I think about it. Has this ever happened? Has someone ever just faked it and not really been BP and it turned out it was the meds they were on making them crazy? I mean I take an awful lot of meds.