Fairly busy morning so far. I got my haircut and some errands, but there's more to do. Feels like it's going to be a lonely day and maybe a lonely weekend. My friend is away on a retreat. I could have gone, but I didn't want to.

I just got an email from his wife saying that there will be a surprise birthday party for him tomorrow. His family and friends will be there. I really don't want to go. Well, maybe I could, but it's out of the way for me. My friend is more outgoing than I am. It seems like when there's something for him, all kinds of people would show up. With me, like on my birthday, hardly anyone would be there. On my birthday I had to go out of my way to his house for a little party. But it was just his wife and sister being there. I'm not crazy about the both of them, so I didn't go. I felt guilty about it.