Thanks, all, Your support means a lot to me.

I arrived home yesterday evening. The therapy (Imaginal Exposure with medication, this time) didn't help one bit. It was really hard. I'm disappointed.
As for further treatment, I'll be doing EMDR again, but with one session a week instead of sporadic inpatient weeks with intensive treatment. The therapist thought this might be a better idea because the inpatient week before last did help some, until I worsened again. I've done weekly EMDR before and it didn't help, but T thinks it might this time. To be honest, she doesn't really know what to do anymore and thinks I might just have to learn to live with it.

This sucks.