It was a shorthand. As I said in the opening post, it's a loaded term, but internet-stalking is a term people use for the activity that I describe. The main problem is that I am anonymous on the forum and that IF he happened to be on the same forum and had linked my anonymous persona to me in real life (let's face it, it's probably not, it's probably a coincidence) then it would definitely be inethical to keep me on as a client.

So the problem with changing therapists is basically that I can't afford therapy. I'm going through the only charity in my area that provides very low-cost therapy that I can afford, so I would need to speak to my current therapist about whether or not it is even allowed within that charity for me to switch therapist and he would have to pass me on to someone else. I guess I just feel awkward about that as I have been seeing him for around 18 months, but then I suppose that's me being a bit cowardly.