I live my life without any body, literally. My phone doesn't ring for months. I sometimes don't even open my lips to speak for days. I understand it is very difficult to get along with people, but feeling alone and lonely is even more difficult, at least at times. I get used to it, but you don't have to take this road.

Try different approaches, keep some guard to your emotions, but don't shut yourself from others. I don't think your rage right now is helping you getting what you want, isn't it? Like how do you expect getting someone, and you are basically making yourself unavailable to others because of past experiences?