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Originally Posted by waggiedog
          
. Hi hunny, yeah, welcome to the club and how we feel so darned low compared to the "normals" of this world. Honestly, I actually detest what I call the "normals", because I've never really known what it's like to be that thing we call "normal". I'm 57 and my eating disorders started basically from birth, as I come from a family of compulsive eaters, a family where meal times were worked around and we live to eat, rather than eat to live. My ED really kicked in when I was 17 and went on my first "diet", yep, did a self imposed diet but it went too far and I ended up in hospital with anorexia and depression. After that every time I wanted to, or had, binged ~~ I tried to kill myself, hence many many admissions and stays in the psych hospital. I can't believe at my age I'm STILL battling ED's, mostly now it's severely restricting or out and out binging.
I wish you the best darling, I KNOW what it all feels like.  |
Sometimes I wonder if what I do is just emotional eating and I shouldn't even be posting here. I know I've had several times in my life when I truly binged - like, eating until I felt sick, then resuming when the physical pain passed just enough - but other than that I'm, at worst, preoccupied with food. And fasting is effing hard.