My therapist knows as much as I'm able to share with him about my history. He knows my present self very well as he was the first person I was able to share the depth of suicidal ideation and self-loathing with.

It's very painful when you bring significant information or feelings to therapy and it feels like it's brushed over or not treated with the respect you feel like it should be. One of the ways I know my therapist cares for me, is that I'm able to be real and tell him when I feel like he's made a mistake, been harsh or misjudged something. Can you tell your therapist when you feel like she/he has brushed over something important? Do you feel like you can be authentic in therapy?

I've had a few therapists before, and I've felt "comfortable" in our therapeutic relationship, but I've never felt uniquely cared about. I think that there is an entire spectrum of caring in the therapeutic realm. I hope you can find what you are looking for.