I've been having a ton of anxiety and sleepless nights obsessing over the possibility that i may be gay. This happened once when i was 16, and is happening now at 18. I've never been with a girl so keep that in mind. I always thought i liked girls, only had crushes on them, and until recently was only attraced to them. I'm not sure i was ever sexually attracted to them though. Lately ive been noticing guys more, and don't care about women. When i... do things to myself i um, finish faster and harder when i think about guys. But its a really disgusted and anxious orgasm, and i feel disgusted afterwards. I tried watching gay porn and while i wasn't disgusted, it was weird and i had no interest. It seems im only attracted to them in my fantasies, but seeing it does nothing for me. Ive never been turned on by the sight of a vagina, but do get slightly aroused when i imagine kissing a girl and taking her clothes off and stuff. I used to love boobs, and always had to check them out, same with butts. But now i feel this disconnect from women entirely. Like, i feel like i should be attracted to them, but im emotionally disconnected, and generally not interested. Also, i did some stuff with another dude when i was like 8. I can't see muself dating or liking a guy. Do you think im gay?