Doing a little better now. Accepting I'm here with a lot of people way younger than me that are very different than me and that I will become cranky with them. I am learning that I need to keep the anti-anxiety meds flowing and then I'm able to live on my bed with earplugs and a book. I'll probably be pacing again tomorrow until I've worn myself out again.

Grumpy nurse trainee tonight. Glad he isn't my nurse. He acted like a request for hydoxyzine was unreasonable. Oh well. Not my problem.

Hoping that tomorrow will be ok. I think I get less Seroquel tonight and then tomorrow I get more clozaril but not until night. I suspect I'll be using my Ambien tonight. Which is probably good to plan for b/c a solid night of sleep would be good.

Just miss my quiet, dark, middle of the country in a forested area house. And my kitties.