The experience of bipolar is as varied as the people who have it. No two cases are alike. For example, I have a friend whose depressions are dark and deep but she's never had suicidal ideation, while my own are equally nasty but I get to wanting off the planet and have to have my husband hide the gun and take over my meds. Another person I know will screw anyone or anything when she's manic, while I do things like spend my family into bankruptcy and over-commit myself to projects, volunteer work etc. It's just different for each of us, so it's hard to tell someone "how bipolar feels" in the general sense.