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Originally Posted by polyonymous
Hello  I came here to get your opinion on an issue thats been plaguing me for as long as I can remember.
So there's the general feeling of detachment, sort of like I'm sitting back and observing this other person live, and life as I've come to know it. I don't know why I've encased their body, and have been sent to witness them on the planet earth, as A creature from another , universe, plane of existence, realm, etc. . The body I live with has become familiar, but I still know it's not mine.
I'm just sitting back in the audience watching the play of life happen before me with all the other actors, including the person who's meant to represent me. Except it's not really me, just the shell. I, myself am a completely different entity.
I think it's very crucial to note that I've already been diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 1. I've come a long way from where I've started and I think I found my right cocktail of medication. From time to time I've brought up with my psychiatrist and Therapist, both telling me to go talk to one another, but I finally let it all go and I've managed to make sure they confer with each other. I want to know what you all think. People I've tried to discuss this with tend to not take me seriously and tell me you're not special, it happens to everybody, etc. Its so depressing and scary. I'm not sure how much longer I can go on like this and certainly can't help how I feel and that it bothers me this much. If I come off as whiny to the people who really do suffer with this issue, I'm very sorry 
Am I being too sensitive and wasting my doctors' time? and should call it all off? |
something you may not be aware of... in 2013 america changed over to a new standard for mental disorders... one of the changes is that depressive disorders now include the symptoms you posted about. (which may be why your treatment providers said you have bipolar disorder and have not diagnosed you with a dissociative disorder)
my suggestion is talk with your treatment providers. they can explain to you about the new diagnostics and symptoms and why they say your problems are bipolar disorder.
another thing I can tell you is that I have bipolar disorder and do have the symptoms that you have posted about. short version psychotropic medications that treat bipolar have the unfortunate side effect of sometimes causing a person to have lack of affect... this is where because of medications sometimes I end up not being able to show, express and feel emotions. just kind of sit there watching and sometimes feeling like I have split in half similar to having alternate personalities but a bit different. when this happens to me I get physical. I stand up, walk around, take my canoe out on the lake and get in touch with nature... and other grounding myself back in touch with my body and others around me.
maybe you and your treatment providers can take the time to write out some grounding activities for you to do that will help you to reconnect with your self and your surroundings.