I don't know if this is the right area to post, if its not feel free to move it.

I have been diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. I have tried medications etc, nothing has really helped. Anyways, there are a few things i need to talk about since I cannot afford a therapist at the moment.

I have never been able to really express myself, always been very shy. When I was diagnosed with social anxiety at age 15, they tried working on emotion recognition since I didn't understand what emotion I felt, it was just a blur.
Didn't really get very far with that, as about 2 months after being on lexapro and about 2 months of paxil, I overdosed on my paxil and was hospitalized. For about 3 years they kept trying different medications and counseling. When I realized nothing was helping, I just gave up on the doctors.
I don't have a lot of sudden mood swings, it is more of a day to month type. This past week is one of the worst I have had with anger and irritability, which is why I joined here. I am rambling on, so I will get to the point now that I gave a little(lot) of my background..

Over the past year I have been noticing irritability. The first time I tried drinking it away(that was a BIG mistake). I feel so frustrated like I am tied up and cannot move, only it is my mind that feels like that. I had about 5 episodes of that last year.
Then comes the new feeling I have never had. At first it started as this nagging thought in my head about hurting people for no reason. Now(at least this week) its like all my anger from the years is coming out. The littlest comment that I perceive as hurtful makes me sad for a moment and suddenly I feel this rage and just start yelling and crying.

What can I do? I have tried the relaxing exercises that I learned for anxiety(ACCEPTS distress tolerance), but that doesn't help with this.