I've never felt like I was making anything up -- too much evidence. Two and a half decades of evidence under the bridge before dx. It was already done in ignorance. How could I feel faking of having symptoms of something I didn't have a clue about(?!)

I do, from time to time think about ditching meds though. Usually when things are going well. I perfectly well know what's happened, but somehow, maybe I've got it together somehow and those things won't happen anymore. Never takes long for that mirage to vanish.