my situation built up gradually as well. my former T would tell me i was much more alive and conversational when i finally got off drugs. he would tell me to wear shorts to his office because i never wore shorts (i had a severe eating disorder at the time). then we would email a lot. which then turned to phone calls. several sexual remarks were made... i was admitted to a hospital and he would call me every night. after i got out and saw him again was when he told me how he felt about me. like precaryous, i was excited. i felt special. he picked ME!!! i must be worth something. but it quickly faded into a nightmare. he picked me because i was weak, vulnerable, easily manipulated. plus he had groomed me for years ever since i was a teenager. im sure he thought this out for a long time before it began. waiting for the perfect moment.

i totally understand the allure of going forward with this as i think ive said to you before. its not a matter of if youre going to get hurt, its a matter of when, in my opinion. yes, the fantasy is so much better than the reality... trust me... hes doing this because he knows your feelings about him.. and he is playing games with you. he is ****ing with you wine not and getting off on it.

what are you getting out of it?? im sure theres something you are receiving from all this that feels good. and theres nothing wrong with that. i think it would be wise to think about what it is that you are trying to accomplish for yourself. i sincerely hope that you dont go any further with this... and i am also very concerned about if someone else is going through this with your therapist. this man is more than likely hurting other people and thats what pains me... so many stay silent... this man needs to be removed from his profession because he seems like a predator