Hi, I wanted to say a few more things after some thinking. One. Safe retreat. Just as an idea, when you face an enemy that you can't beat, when you feel that your best fight is futile, maybe this might help. Like I've seen in your old posts, I too feel that this place is where I end up dying or something, I don't see no way to move out, and not that comfortable, right now, it's not even affordable since I don't have any income. I haven't read anything about war strategies of the past, I'm saying that I can't tell you anything about the actual event's example, I'm pretty sure you know more and be able to tell me about it. Unless we do something about it, of course the living situation's not gonna change for the better. But lately, I'm seeing my life situation as, maybe I can't be stuck here forever, even though it's an almost impossible task to try to find myself a new place, if I have to... Just a little hope, a lot more probability than winning a lottery, it's not a luck, it has a lot to do with mind's will. I hope you get my meaning by now.

Two. This may have been suggested already, before thinking too hard about being forced out, of course you can try the useless mgmt of your apartment, and do you have another neighbor who might be getting the same noise you are getting? They too might have the same complaint as you do. Just a thought. Bring the cookies if you can and you might wanna ask them for help.

Like I said in my last post, I once had a really tough time, once on the balcony right outside, they were renovating the outer wall, as well as the repainting of the balcony, I was scared of everything, so I didn't move, I kept quiet. The painter was working, chatting on a cell phone right next to my window, and I didn't like that at all. Also I couldn't go out to get some air, public fear, is that what it's called? So here's an idea, no.3. When you do go out, can you try to charge some energy while you're out, so maybe you can keep a bit more stability in control when you are back home?

People can get mean, and you feel afraid for your own safety, I get that. You know them, those nasty neighbors more than anyone even if you see things as confused jumble at times. And you've mentioned the medication, maybe the treatment provider have an ear to listen to you, what I'm trying to say is that I hope you keep working on yourself like you've been doing all this time, anything and anyone could help to alleviate the weight of the thinking of the situation, don't be too hard on yourself, you can get through this.

I wish I could write more concisely but this is the best I can do. I hope some of my idea helps in some ways.

ETA: Additional tips? I'm not sure. Your post always sound smart, and I'm like too confident, sometimes I think that I can outsmart anyone, so NOW, not back then, I can think to myself that even if someone were intentionally try to scare me and threaten me, the worse it gets the better for me, so I can sue them, report them to the police, you get my point? Please try to stay safe and sound though.