Omg. I am so freaking out right now. I was working on a 1000 piece puzzle and I am nearing the end. There left a corner of green leaves which agonises me as I have so much difficulty piecing them together. At the same time, on the other corner, there is an empty space of orange colour which is obviously not among the green pieces left.
It stresses me out and I am so upset. I want to feel completed and now it's not. The puzzle is from Japan so it means I have to mail a letter to Japan to tell them of the missing piece for them to mail me the piece back. There are many things that can happen, e.g. lost mail, contact failure, duration it takes.



I am going through relapse with med adjustment and this incident just made it worse.
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Bipolar, BPD, ED
increasing med right now: a downhill slope
Seroquel 200mg
Epilim 300mg
Olanzapine 5mg
Amisulpride 50mg (just started trying this)
Clonazepam 1.5mg
Ativan 1mg (PRN)
Zopiclone (Imovane) 10mg
In psychosis and struggling worse with ED
I skip med because I would rather be psychotic than living in the real sucky world
Who can understand?...
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