Officially a creep now. Unwanted advance and obvious knockback. I'm 0 for 2 on the asking out scorecharts now. Next attempt due in another 22 years. Feel magic (not). I've turned into a teenager who just hit puberty again.

Weird thing is it wasn't even the same person as above (further rejection possibly to come). Obviously I've also decided to break the "only interested in one woman" thing as well because an old workmate who I had on my facebook friends list once made a pass at me when she was young, naive, desperate, drunk, drugged, wanting to annoy someone else or whatever was going on one night, I rebuffed in my usual way, now years later and I feel as though my life is ending so I try and restart something that was a mistake on her part in the first place.

And I would know that of course if I had any sense and my head wasn't spinning around all over the place as though I was 17 due to depression, impending feelings of "quick...lets make something happen" doom, taking meds, being bored senseless......but no...I have to test the waters with all the grace of a ballet-dancing elephant and must now bear the rejected badge for a while.

I should probably have got this stuff out my system many years ago. It's easier just to not try and accept a lower place but I am so bored.

And...yep...I was going to stop using this thread as my personal diary but I figure since I've started defecating in this corner that I might as well stick with it. As long as I stay anonymous then I'm safe.